cakebaker19
- She makes me feel awful :'(
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cakebaker19- April 7th, 2009
Another one today!
Well if you read my previous entry you would see that my mom and i were fighting earlier today. We used to get along so well, like best friends, but now it seems like we are always fighting. I know a lot of teenagers and their parents dont get along but my mom and i do. I feel like she doesnt see the good things i do. It seems like she is just seeing all the ways i screw up. She makes me feel like the worst daughter ever, like its impossible for her to be proud of me anymore. Im on the verge of tears and i hate this!
- Another Day Passes By
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- cakebaker19
- April 7th, 2009
Well today was just another ordinary day. I woke up for school and i didnt feel very good but my mom made me go to school anyway.
Ugh school was boring, as usual. English was way boring cause we didnt do anything at all, we are reading this book that i hate its called A Hope In The Unseen. We are supposed to be on the last two chapters but i have yet to read the second chapter. Then on to spanish, this class i am surprisingly good at, the only thing i hate is the fact that my ex boyfriend is in this class who i utterly hate! He sits next to one of my friends and every time i turn to talk to her he is staring at me and i wanna tell him that if he misses me its his fault cause he is the one who let me go and that i really hate him. Then third period was chemistry. Ah how i despise that class. I dont understand anything we are doing, and when i think i know whats going on 99% of the time i am wrong. Algebra 2 is next and since that is 4th period we have the actual class for an hour, lunch for half hour and study hall which lasts a half hour. I dont mind this class but the teacher is extremely annoying, she thinks she is cool but no one in my class likes her. She constantly is repeating herself and talks so slow. Sometimes i think she thinks we are stupid or something. Next is tech, this class can be fun but other times i would rather not go there. I dont understand why i have to take it but whatever. We have to build all kinds of stuff and the fact that i suck at building anything is definitely not the worst part. Worst of all is i sit right next to that same ex boyfriend i see in 2nd period (and lunch) He is so freakin immature and i cant believe i ever liked him. He is such a jerk to everyone, including me. 6th period, world culture, my least favorite class, all i can say is that a usually sleep cause its so boring. 7th is my dance class and since the season is over for performances we usually just sit there and hang out or do homework or whatever else we wanna do but we do have to do projects but just simple ones. After school my mom picked me up, on the way home we were fighting and she made me feel so awful so since pretty much the time we have been home i have been in my room blaring the music cause it is pretty much the only thing that makes me feel better :)
Much <3
- Get To Know Me!
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- cakebaker19
- April 6th, 2009
calm
Okay so this is my first journal on this site so i thought i would make it like an introduction to me.
First of all my name is Samantha but i prefer Sam. 16 years of age and im your average teenage girl. I live in one of the smallest towns ever and it is in the middle of nowhere. My parents are divorced so i live with my mom and my "step-dad", they arent married but i still consider him my step-dad since he treats me better than my own father does. My mom is the only person i can trust. She has been right there beside me since the day i was born. My father and i dont get along that well and i would just rather not even talk to him, i know, thats bad but if you were me you would probably feel the same way. He has never been that great of a father and is currently dating this girl who im thinking is a gold digger, and she is such a skank so i refuse to go anywhere near her. He knows i dont like her but he thinks she is amazing but i guess he is blinded by love, if that is what you want to call it. My grandparents are my neighbors and are amazing, they are so influential.
I have lots of friends but not many best friends because throughout the years i have lost them. Also i cant trust anyone (except my mom) anymore because i have been lied to so much. By friends and boyfriends. So when it comes to dating, it scares me, because i dont think my heart can handle anymore pain. But i currently am in a relationship with a boy named justin, we have been dating since feb.16th. I do love him but im still scared he is going to hurt me the way the other guys have. He is so important to me though, he makes me smile and i love that i can be 100% myself when im with him. I dont have to hide anything when im around him :)
Music is the main thing that gets me through life. Its super important to me. I play the piano andlovewriting songs. It is the main way i can express myself. I love the way that it makes me feel better no matter how upset i am. Dancing is another thing i love, but i havent been doing it all my life. My freshman year i tried out for my high schools dance team and i surprisingly made it with no background or previous experience. Im not the best but i still love it.
In the future i hope to open a bakery of my own because baking is another one of my hobbies, im no Emeril, but im still new to it. Also i hope to travel to several different places around the world to see the amazing sites. And to see the world from a different view.
Im extremely self-conscious and always worry what people think about me. I hate that but im trying to get over it. People who never tried to get to know me or talk to me dont like me at all. They think I am stuck up and snobby. But if they talk to me, chances are they will like me because im easy going and one of the nicest people you will meet.
- Writer's Block: Grab and Go
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- cakebaker19
- April 6th, 2009
I would want to know about Area 51... are there aliens and UFOs?
